Chances

I just came back from watching Last Chance Harvey, raw honesty truly does give strength. Sometimes it is all that can save us from the continuous stiff upper lip that we have made a part of us. Whoever told us that truth was not worth it, that keeping one's feelings and emotions were better off than being plain and simple, destroyed who we are. The constant need to be something or someone else burns the soul, scalding it to the point of a look alike acidic burn. There are truly last chances in life and I know this too well. I am quite tolerant of people especially when I love them, but it gets harder as they tread on my heart, and it hurts me to know that during this season I know for sure that we are heading towards the end of my rope, when I will say fare thee well. It actually twists my heart because for me it is a total giving up.There are doors and there are windows and there are roads that lead to many places, many of those roads may meet again or maybe just go further away and life just has to go on. For each one is but a lesson for us to make us better and to make us learn to love, give and serve. This week for the first time in my life I have had to pump air into flat tires on my car, jump start the car when the battery died and today went in to have it changed because it had aged so...I went to my third Yoga class and realized how un-proportional and I lack a sense of body balance. Does this mean the earth is not in alignment for me? If so then I can understand why for a while I struggled keeping to my lane while on the highway. Anyway, My body used to be proportional but for some reason I stopped looking after it, now am determined to work at making my life the best life ever. Three of my siblings are engaged in the same year and they live countries apart, they are not in their mid twenties but in their mid thirties and knowing them I know it is not some kind of excitement but a determined purpose to love and live, I pray for them and happy for them, am looking forward to weddings this year. With the new adjustments am making, the realization that my body needs looking after, the lessons am learning from movies and cars and my new growing family, for that I am thankful. I have a chance to meet new family, to love them and to travel even more. I have a chance at life and am hoping that each day I can smile because I am part of a great people and life.