When I was in grad school I looked forward to the weekends, now am out I look forward to weekdays because it is when I get to hear about job applications. Both of us are so wound up with writing job applications. It’s practically done our heads in. I want my own space so I retreat; I even started walking around the house wearing ear plugs, because I need to listen to myself. She is crying sometimes and wondering why the A man is acting the way he is. She talks of moving to City T, thinking she will get a job faster if she can get to speak with people. I doubt it. Everything seems to be done over email these days. So much for the computer age.
There is something to be said of confessions, last week I came to the realization that I really do want to meet someone who is as passionate about me as I he. I also want to have children together NOT alone. I thought once that I could adopt a child, yet now I know I do not want to do this. I am of the belief that children need the experience of growing up in a household headed by the two different sexes on earth. Now you’ll probably start calling me homophobic. I can’t for the life of me, stand terms like this. You probably already know how much I hate boxed terms. Why can’t people just have opinions and go with or leave behind. Everyone should for the sake of their own mind be allowed to have an opinion. I do not see why Obama supporting gay marriage matters at all. If he had said otherwise y’all would have been bitching about him. I think people should have opinions based on their beliefs and values rather than us expecting them to think the way we do. Remember it is a democracy. Why can’t voting just be enough? Thing is I can only speak what I know, I will never claim to understand anything I do not really know about so I hope that I can have children and give them the life and love I had growing up.
