Day 2

My biggest regret if my life were ending in a few weeks, would be being away from My parents and siblings, it would be not being in the home I grew up in because for me the roots go well deep. Am not sure I suffer from the someday syndrome, I often end up doing what I want to do. I have not made jewelry in a couple of weeks which I have committed myself to doing. I also want to go to Italy live there for a year, Live in France for three to five years and live in Greece for a year. After this I would like to take my parents to Seychelles for a month's holiday and then return to Uganda and raise my feet up, live like a Queen and wait to pass on - this though would never be incorporated in a few weeks, yet this is not for someday that is for when I get money. I tend to travel whenever I get the money to, Am not sure I would spend a year saving for a trip, yet I like to save for a rainy day. If I was fully engaged my life would look like the building in the picture; and since I do not know how much time I have left I am going to start building strong foundations for every aspect in life, relationships and career...

I know

This morning I decided to go find a short gym skirt after seeing a lady at the gym with one last evening-so much for coveting. So before heading off to the gym, I popped into JC Penny's but there was naught. Then I went to Sears where I found a great number of them gym suits, skirt and top going for about $57, I gaped. Decided to keep looking and found a set in the 40% off rack, tried three on, looked horrible. There was a time when I looked great in short skirts now my thighs are ridiculously large and put me off completely (a little exaggeration there) but I did not like the look anyway,am starting to think that I have been used to covering up so much especially with the intense caution about covering up in Cairo. it does not matter how long you live in Egypt, you get traumatized by the harassment that Egyptian men are known for on the street and start to cover every part of your skin that might just cause some attention. So the story goes I was determined to find myself a nice short gym skirt for working out and feeling good about myself. I finally found one that was going for $15, tried it on, felt good about it and went off to pay for it, with all the images of me on the treadmill looking like I know that I look good and I know where am going. Counter lady scans it, turns out it's $25, I explained to her about the rate on the rack and persuaded her to come with me so I could show her, she came, saw and went off to ask her manager who came and pulled the whole set of gym skirts and took them away, muttering something about a mistake. Face fell, told counter lady I was not taking it and went off to work out in my usual tights. Now I would have bought it but why does the Army just take so long to pay our soldiers who give their lives to service? Some may ask why don't you just have a job that pays? I have been at the application process for ages, done interviews and have come out with a volunteer job which I am enjoying and depending on the hubby to provide, but is that not what life was meant to be? Then why did I pursue all that schooling and more is coming? I know that I need it, I know I will look good in a tiny short skirt again, I know that I will get a job soon, I know that one day I will have more money than I do now, I also know that I will go to school again, even so am content with my tights for now.

Faith like Potatoes

Everybody I talked to said, everyone fails the first road test in either Minnesota or the US. I practiced my parallel parking to the point of obsession, started dreaming that I was parallel parking and prayed over it with Tracy a good friend of mine whose Husband has been tireless at helping me with all that I needed to do to pass my road test. afternoon I had my test and parallel parked perfectly according to the instructor,I passed my test and the boost that I have to participate on the road is indescribable now as am bubbling with joy. Drove back in traffic and had fun doing it, changing lanes as though I have been at it for years, a luxury we don't have that much in Uganda considering the size of our roads. I feel more in control now, with much more on my hands. I am extremely thankful to my friends who took time to help me out, with rides to places when I could not dare risk a long ride on the road without a license. Yet one thing is certain, I believed that I would pass my test first time I did it, despite the discouragement I got, and trust me this discouragement was not intended for me as an individual but it has become the norm that the first test is often failed. I decided to put my faith in God and told Him to help me when I had to do parallel parking and indeed He did. When I did my test in Uganda I practically failed parallel parking, did not pay a bribe but got my license anyway. My brother who went with me insists that the Police Instructors only favored me. Spent time at the YMCA today, I have postponed all my yoga classes as I still have to conclude a conversation on Yoga with a friend who thinks there is more to it than fitness, she is concerned about the whole meditation orientation. So I have resorted to maintaining my time at the gym walking miles and increasing my steps daily.Today was great as I spent 65 minutes without any interruption. Watched 'Faith like Potatoes' amazing true story, faith is a real attribute that can only manifest greatly when placed in God. I am always perplexed that it is often the people who lead us, who question our faith in times of crisis. But faith is one of those attributes that is essential for any relationship. Faith like potatoes is one interesting phrase yet I realize that potatoes(Irish ones as Ugandans say) can not be seen when ready, so even the planting process can be a faith move but even greater when there is drought. As the book "One month to live' says that the life of faith that everyone calls ridiculous is the only way to live. Hoping that my faith will be as that of Angus Buchan in 'Faith like potatoes'

You are God alone

You are not a god Created by human hands You are not a god Dependant on any mortal man You are not a god In need of anything we can give By Your plan, that’s just the way it is [chorus] You are God alone From before time began You were on Your throne Your are God alone And right now In the good times and bad You are on Your throne You are God alone You’re the only God Whose power none can contend You’re the only God Whose name and praise will never end You’re the only God Who’s worthy of everything we can give You are God And that’s just the way it is [chorus] [bridge] Unchangeable Unshakable Unstoppable That’s what You are By Philips, Craig & Dean