24th April, Faythe's wedding day

Attempts to write much today failed, I read instead - good thing. Just realize how much more I need to read. I have only 9 days to defense and need to get on top of things. Called home and talked for ages to Dad, Ruth and Faythe... talked to Esther Ameda as well. last night Meghan, Kelsy, Annie, Ahmed, Hassan and I went out for Sudanese food, that was good!!!! we had the most amazing food ever, enjoyed the mchomo like meat and the bean stew...the guys at the restaurant must have though we were a bunch of rogues cause we were laughing like there was no tomorrow and eating like gluttons- we ate more than the guys did. Ahmed is the cutest of all Meghan's men, I hope they have a better relationship than all these crazy ones- she really does deserve better. He smiles like a genuine one, but as Kelsy said, "Never judge a book by its cover, or the first few pages,' and I added "You have to turn it over, read the back and find out more about the author." Today, the tears came all over again, but I guess I know and am sure the best thing is to let go and let God. I cant understand how something can be so ingrained that its like trying to take the ingradients out of a ready Cake. But for all that is worth its what i need to do. Tried to study at CMRS library and Dr. Nancy's office, it just does not feel the same way anymore, I guess am letting myself realize that the library is moving and I can not afford to get attached to it anymore, everything is passing through, we all are anyway. (Now, Now my pessimistic side kicks in) Got back home a few minutes to 11pm and I am knackered, yet there is much going on outside, it never ceases to amuse how Cairenes stay up late and just keep going. I need to hit the sack now, I got back on face book and am wondering whether it was the right thing to do. I need self control to not go there when I have work to accomplish. Am so excited for Faythe, she seems really happy and I am glad she is. I am thankful that the wedding went really well.