musings

Mistakes are painful, but they are the only way of finding out who you really are- Danny Dukett Yesterday I had lemon mint juice and chocolate trufle cake with Kenya at Costa, Kenya hhad lemon mint juice and carrot cake. we had a wonderful long chat and that was refreshing, It was so good to have someone to chat with like a sister. Today Meghan, Catherine and I studied at the AUC bookstore, I loved the water fountain, felt like swimming. Class seminar on the securitization of migration was interesting we went on and on over a discussion on race, economics, social and political. The class helps me think, I shared some of my thoughts today and that helped me understand things better, I realize more and more that am comfortable in my skin, that I appreciate being black no matter how much it costs me, the abuse, insults, degradation that it comes with - I am comfortable. Its not what defines me, what defines me is more than my skin color, its who I am as an individual - The person and not the color. We had dinner from Karaz and watched a movie "British Sounds' at Ewart hall. The movie had much to do with migrants and varied peoples, interesting stuff our MRS 570 class should have seen it. Its 2am and I have been watching Season 3 of Grey's Anatomy all over again from two years ago. I need to get serious and sleep, but I have no sleep and I have a headache. Dale called this week, mom called, I sent a letter to Milton, took my laptop for repair, got Dmbek into vocational school, did some interviews, lost some of the ones on my recorder and I applied for my residence visa. Am weary. Guilt never goes anywhere on its own, it brings its friends, doubt and insecurity - Meredith Grey First do no harm, but most of us do harm all the time!