I just got a new baby, first time I have bought a laptop for myself, quite pleased as I spent most of my hard earned savings but it has been worth it. Its a beautiful Dell laptop and has everything that I love.when I type it never quite makes much noise. I guess am going to love this.
Been in Northampton five days now,Went to an intervarsity fellowship last night at the University of MA, I met a striking man, Steve. He reminds me of the intellectual men of Africa. The likes of Ngugi Wa'Thiongo. He has a rugged look and seems extremely intelligent. Janet shared my sentiments and we laughed so hard about it. We have had such long talks on racism, segreggation and our future as black women. I am much encouraged about life, I am aware that God is rooting for me more than anyonre else and for that I am grateful.
Meditation is always one of those calming practices, in the midst of my fatigue and body aches (for lack of exercise) meditation fills that gap so well. Maybe it has to do with exercise of the mind to calm me. I realize now how much I have been so used to exercising. I am weary and tend to ache so much and I just cannot accept that I am tired, because am used to going on and on and managing my body. I have to stop soon and just chill, be quiet and gentle with myself.
I am sitting with Mwalye in the library, right now. He is such a good person and an obedient child after firm persuasion (arent all children?) anyway I have made him read a book on Uganda which he did not want to read, yet when he started to read he loved it and now he is writing down stuff he does not want to forget. I realize from being with him that I am kind of afraid I will be a much toos erious parent and one that insists on reading and studying like my dad and forget to do fun things to build a friendship with my children. I hope that does not happen yet I seem inclined to doing that.
We are off to the playground and a walk round the town. I am looking forward to just sitting down watching a movie and having alone time, but David needs company. This makes me applaud Janet for being a single mom and raising him well, yet it also makes me wonder how on earth am ever going to manage having a child taking my time for several years. Lord help me.
