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This morning I decided to go find a short gym skirt after seeing a lady at the gym with one last evening-so much for coveting. So before heading off to the gym, I popped into JC Penny's but there was naught. Then I went to Sears where I found a great number of them gym suits, skirt and top going for about $57, I gaped. Decided to keep looking and found a set in the 40% off rack, tried three on, looked horrible. There was a time when I looked great in short skirts now my thighs are ridiculously large and put me off completely (a little exaggeration there) but I did not like the look anyway,am starting to think that I have been used to covering up so much especially with the intense caution about covering up in Cairo. it does not matter how long you live in Egypt, you get traumatized by the harassment that Egyptian men are known for on the street and start to cover every part of your skin that might just cause some attention. So the story goes I was determined to find myself a nice short gym skirt for working out and feeling good about myself. I finally found one that was going for $15, tried it on, felt good about it and went off to pay for it, with all the images of me on the treadmill looking like I know that I look good and I know where am going. Counter lady scans it, turns out it's $25, I explained to her about the rate on the rack and persuaded her to come with me so I could show her, she came, saw and went off to ask her manager who came and pulled the whole set of gym skirts and took them away, muttering something about a mistake. Face fell, told counter lady I was not taking it and went off to work out in my usual tights. Now I would have bought it but why does the Army just take so long to pay our soldiers who give their lives to service? Some may ask why don't you just have a job that pays? I have been at the application process for ages, done interviews and have come out with a volunteer job which I am enjoying and depending on the hubby to provide, but is that not what life was meant to be? Then why did I pursue all that schooling and more is coming? I know that I need it, I know I will look good in a tiny short skirt again, I know that I will get a job soon, I know that one day I will have more money than I do now, I also know that I will go to school again, even so am content with my tights for now.