The week that was...

Its been a while since I last journal-ed. The week has been racing, feels like I have done nothing completely and now its time to write and I have a brain bloc. UNHCR called me up for an interview after the Protection officer got fed up with my emails, the conference session was good because I was able to get as much as I needed but the greatest huddle was the Chief, he sat in and made Mariham and I look extremely stupid. Amanuel had escorted me and Mariham was the other researcher at the conference session.The man has such an intimidating demeanor but we kind of got through it all, anyway the session went well... twisted information from UNHCR, its a disturbing field this humanitarianism business. Spent some time at a STAR class that Dmbek and Thomas are teaching, five Afghan students, one that sat next to me was so charming and attractive, he was feeling very personal with me, but wala - I hope he can feel whatever he feels inside of him. Meanwhile there is a Frenchman that keeps calling me, wanting to hang out. Am not interested in all these men,I always feared to hurt people, now I just do not feel a thing. Mohammed came by to the office this week after trying to get me to go out with him, failed attempts led him to come over and want to chat, my goodness; this was in itself a failed attempt at wooing - My body was present, but am quite sure that he noticed I just was not there. I dont have to work at it anymore, it just happens. Meanwhile I started Daily meditations, I am calmed and a lot more alert after them. I have not been to the gym much this week but I feel energized. I feel rather fat though, I am wondering why... the Sundaes, five visits to KFC thsi semester and my addiction to chocolate as comfort food is probably taking it's toll- time to stop and work at being fit and healthy. I bought my ticket home and am excited...