Pain frees weakness

After watching Ninja Assassins (I know it’s just a movie) yet the concept of pain freeing weakness is evident and is emulated in life. During and after a painful experience, expectations of people are lessened leading to an acceptance, rather than a tolerance of what relations with other human beings should be. Panic and weakness become foreign and a restful attitude towards life becomes the norm, sometimes though one can become aggressive, sad and withdrawn then you know pain has not finished its work. The human being becomes aware that the weakness in him or her is but the weakness in another and in our frailty, in our imperfection and the chaos of life, we are mortal and we fail. It could be a tear drop or a tear but truly, tears and tears make us stronger. There were times she sthought the tears would never stop flowing after so much crying how could there be so much water, but pain sears and cuts so deep. She wished she could forget, forget the memories the sad ones, and so she tried. Holding onto the good ones, yet there were times when the bad ones was so alive, so out there blurring the path she was on. A crisis of belief, she thought. How does anyone move on in the midst of all this? How does anyone let go and let love? How does anyone not allow this to come between her and those she loved? She asked the questions the tears said let go, hurl it out there and give them a second chance, some needed third and nth chances. She knew, she was never perfect herself, but she tried, tried to be all that was true. And then the day came when she realized that this pain was limiting her dreams and expansions, it was the weight that she carried even when she did not want to. And she hurled it, not at once, oh that would be unrealistic! But she started to let it go, to pay service to her own future and let go. Because letting go is the currency we pay for a bright future. Pain said, ‘life goes on and it is worth living, suicide is no option, but to fight and keep going is all that counts.’ As human beings our frailties are much more evident in relationship, and even though we hurt each other, nothing can damage relationships beyond what we allow. But what is most certain is after pain, weakness becomes unnecessary, the notion that “this too will pass” becomes a motto, not in phrase but in actions, in a sense “Taking a lesson from the ocean. Hurl some things away from you and bring others to you, and when all else fails…just go on.” - end- We spent the day learning and admiring Islamic art, I appreciate it, yet I have issues with concepts of the Islamic faith, I want to under stand it fully and look at it from the eyes of one who reads and knows the Qu'ran rather than pick out excerpts from the beliefs of the book. Several of my friends are Muslims, expected – being in a Muslim country, it is illegal for me to start trying to covert anyone to my faith- which is not really my job, I can influence and water and plant but its only God who makes things grow, I find so many of my Muslims friends devoted to reading, mediating and memorizing , Their devotion is so much as some Christians, sometimes I find Christians as extremely religious as Muslims, In a conversations with of my friends recently I share my faith in terms of relationship rather than religion, going to church and doing good things does not make me a Christian, what makes me a Christian is my faith in God, religion is about doing relationship is about being and that is who I am, I am in relationship with God and that to me is not subscribing to religion. Religion is keenly related to categories in humanitarianism, back to my thesis; I can’t seem to help it. When we ‘religize’ situations, concepts and ideas we make categories out of them and then it becomes a whole mess of the same thing. People believing in the same God yet possessing varying ideas on the route to get into a relationship with God. We complicate life when we make it one with hierarchical categories. “Young men averse to toil of body and mind, and too soft to stand up against pleasure and pain are mere idlers’- Roués/ Plato: Went to the 8th floor for refuge as my roommate was having an Italian lesson in our tiny little flat, even being in my room feels like am interfering. So anyway we get into this conversation about gays, someone mentioned that they would not want to even be a friend to a gay person. I wondered what Jesus would do? Would he hang out with us who are seemingly into relationship with God or with the messed up man down the road and yeah, he did hang out with scoundrels, losers and the cast out. And that am learning is what I should do. Am a firm believer in no coincidences in life, I believe that God has brought me along this path am on for a reason and the people I get to meet are for a reason, they are constantly reminding me what true love is, what friendship is and what relationship means. Am grateful that I can relate.