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Sunday, 22 April 2012

My hair loves honey! Started using honey as a hair moisturizer; mixed it up with raw Shea oil, coconut oil, olive oil, Monistat 7, water and a nexus leaving in conditioner. My hair responds to honey as though that is what it was made for, no wonder my name means bee. Excitement fills my days as I realize what my hair needs to flourish.

What people think of me is not my business if I start to make it my business I will be offended for the rest of my life -
Life is not happening to you but happening for you – everything that happened in my past becomes a force to leverage me into the future. Life is not happening to, but happening for me I am not what happens to me I am the spirit in which the happenings come and go…the despair and joy- I am a deeper soul in which all these things happen. I am the higher reality. I think this sounds more like Deepak than myself. Yet I believe it all.
Pursue excellence ignore success. What is the gift in my addictive behavior – move from spirit to spirit. Addiction is a search for ecstasy – exaltation – ends in oblivion. I could use this addictive tendency for healing and transformation – habits create a lack of awareness- Life is not happening to you but for you – to enhance you to help you to grow. Every single thing that is happening becomes a force to leverage you into the future- You are not what happens to you – you are the spirit in which the happenings come and go. Comings and goings pleasures and pains – I am a deeper soul in which all these things happen.
Un-forgiveness has everything to do with me and nothing to do with the other person. It blocks me from taking the risk of love. Robs  me from my future. “TD jakes – Letting go”
Letting your forgiveness be predicated by someone else’ behavior is like leaving your thermostat remote in his house so he can control it. No one’s behavior should control your response. When people say things about you that are not true reject them. Do not adopt their reality as your reality. Move yourself from harm’s way- What you did does not matter anymore- no longer affects how I live in the now and in the future. I am not going to let what you did to me continue to affect the way I live now. I do not want to be defined by what happened yesterday but by the future not by the past. I can’t afford- Life is too precious to allow these moments to determine my response. I am not trying to forget, if I forget I lose the wisdom from the incident. I want to remember so that I do not repeat it, or learn from and draw lessons from it. So that I can be wiser, our outreach to others is born from it.
Mix cake ingredients – Baking powder or sodium bicarbonate are just gross on their own. One segment of life in isolation is bitterness. Yet when we add all these segments we realize we are many things. All of a sudden our lives are beautiful and tasty when all these various segments are brought together. I cannot forgive what I cannot understand. It’s so much easier to cope when I understand the person. I can then adjust my expectations to deliverables on the level of the others capacity. Do not expect someone to love you on a gallon level when they are a pint person or I will be frustrated for the rest of my life. You can’t keep being around pint people when you are a gallon person. ‘
No thing, no material possession matters in terms of defining who you are– Oprah. Use your life to come alive this is when you most come alive- My job is to feel my calling and honor it. Setbacks push you in the right directions.
Just finished reading ‘Brida’ by Paulo Coelho after staying up all night reading it, It’s been a while since I last read a gripping book. For a while I had stopped believing in soul mates, you can guess why. I have been beaten once  in love. Generally I tend to look over men, for fear that I might fall in love again and then history just might repeat itself. Plunging in and making mistakes seems to be Paulo’s conclusion of life. If he were to sum up life in two words it would be ‘risk plunging’.  There are some things in life I do so well. I have not yet found out why I am here to start honoring that specifically. Yet I know there are some things I love to do.

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