Its this pain

5th May 2010 I have a bad taste in my mouth, my heart sears, it pains and it hurts more than I can express. But it’s not that kind of pain that makes you want to yell, it’s the silent pain, that makes you want to hold yourself so tight and squeeze until you can’t feel anymore, It’s the pain that makes you want to run into some wild dream, but the reality of the pain you can’t escape. No, it’s too evident, too alive, am too aware of it. I see his face right in front of me and I want to cry, but oh, am so weary of tears.